o man...just what is the power of money?
really couldn't leave without it....there was once when i would refuse to go out just because i don't wish to spend...but at the same time...couldn't save much as well...during my primary school days...i joined quite a few japalang CCA..ok la...enjoyed a bit..hmmm...then in secondary school days..i was afraid that CCA might affect my studies..so i joined a slack CCA..LOL...librarian....hahas..a bit of regrets actually...in poly days..i joined NYP Pal and student Union just because i wanted to help out in campus concert..haha...wasn't really much into CCA as well..cos' i prefer to work than to do things which cause me to lose money...
every thing done was out to make sure that i had enough to spend..and never had savings till I worked in Ameron..it's a bit like a disgrace when you had been spending on leisure using the money you earned all these while and yet have to get from parents suddenly..leisure spending should never be a burden on parents..much less to say..the more i shouldn't do that when my mother is earning so little and father not working~~~~with us all in tertiary education some more...
despite saying all these..i met with financial crisis now..i had never met that since i was in poly for somehow..i always had at least a small amount coming in just when i needed it...for the whole semester..i am jobless..now...working in a tuition centre as a front counter personal...working every sunday only..i guess no more telemarketer job...now spending into my school fees savings...hope i get my pay soon..
with the crisis in mind...i seriously do not want it to be stopping me from doing a lot of things...this december holidays..i go out like nobody's business..spending just because i want to go out for gatherings and stuff...if i hadn't done that..i could have a bit more to spend when school term starts...but one thing in mind since i entered uni is..i do not want my life to just be study and go home and work..leisure should come in place as much too..it sounds like i don't really know what is the right thing i need to do...but seriously..i want to live with colours...and yes..it's colours....doing as much things as possible.....
i really didn't want my life to be controled by financial problem...
who is understanding what i'm thinking?and not hurting me?perhaps i may be wrong to a certain extent in which i have not realised..but..afterall..we only live once..
studying doesn't seems to be my priority now..is that a right thinking?i'm not too sure either..this is life..
就算这次做错也只是怕错过。。
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