~night out~

i'm so damn sleepy now....zZzz.......yesterday slept at 7am...woke up at 10.30am to go for the 'let's moove it' trial run...alright...what i can say is..their games are just creative~! (=

went to CCK stadium to jog with Jia Jia in the evening and night went to Cineleisure's K Box with cousin and sister till 4 plus...wanted to sing till 6...but..........my sister fell asleep at 3 plus la..haha....and it's just damn bloody cold there....and never go home at 4 plus..lol~!cos' if you miss the last night rider~that's it...either you cab home or you wait for the 1st bus or train~! hahahh....and next SAturday my friend wanted to go pub..hahahha...and i agreed..lol...what's wrong with her?haha...is she just so sian as stated in the sms?hahahah....

alright...yesterday went out is cos my cousin wasn't feeling ok in the heart...having serious communication problem with the family...wondering whether to take up 1 more diploma...wanting to give our darling little boy a healthy family and yet have to tolerate someone's at times unacceptable action whom in my eyes seems quite a good person....whatever was said...i listen...but..never 100% trust..for some reason...i can feel that you really do dote on us...without fail...but sometimes...whatever was done...and with the fact that i am not around you 24hrs 365 days..i see..trying to stay neutral and not hurt you further...i try to stand in a neutral position..it's a mess i know...no more of a reversal route for you..and yet avoiding is never the solution...i really couldn't believe you totally..but...hope that a mistake was realised...not looking back..and just do what's the best for darling little boy..for he'll be the only one to allow you the courage to live on i believe (= i think much talking was done..yes..it's just time for some self reflection...


"释怀说了太多就成真不了 。。也许时间是一种解药。。也是我现在正服下的毒药 。。"

it's no use looking back or wondering...how it could have been now or might have been...


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