~if only~

ROAR~!!!!i just wanted to shout it out loud~!IF ONLY I'VE GOT HELL LOT OF DOLLARS FOR ME TO SPEND~! okok.......i don't know what i'm thinking......what i know is there's nothing i can do without it....someone used to tell me...this is my choice...and what i will face is this......and i'm prepared to face it...but....it's irritating when this is the reason for rejection.....arhx.......actually it gives me a reason to stay home which i seems to like it recently....but on the contrary...it makes me anti social?for it makes me don't feel like going anywhere....hmmm....ok...even if my parents can support me......i also can't have the thought to want to spend in terms of going out.....hmmm....

alright...i'm not too sure.....and one more thing is that i'm reading too much into others action such that i've misunderstood somethings.....it seems the case...but somehow i don't feel like clarifying it....for if i were to do so...there's just so much to clarify.......why can't confidence just come and find me?or do i have not enough exposure?why can't i just focus and do something?why am i just so distracted?somethings was just thinking what's the point of me living on this earth......how i wish i'm an angel who can bring happiness to everyone....i'm a genie who can grant every wish..i'm a kid who'll never grow up...a doraemon who can make everything possible....

how i wish...i'm obama...who can change the world...heal the world to make it a better place...how i wish...i'm a useful person.......

can i just be a mute girl?i don't wish to say anything... brain dead + dead heart=walking vampire..am i cold blooded or warm blooded?am i a girl or a guy?how i wish i'm a guy.... ~i'm nt a ger..nt yet a woman~

平凡确实是一种幸福
没有如果

alright~
shall share an interesting tongue twister...

here it goes~~~

i thought a thought,
but the thought i thought i thought
wasn't the thought i thought~!
if the thought i thought i thought
had been the thought i thought,
i wouldn't have thought so much~!

haha~!wasn't it nice? one of the most meaningful tongue twister i've came across....in my communication class..~!hahahh.....like it ^_^

now...just want to ask you to control your inner emotions....don't read too much into actions.....and you better be focus~! and can you please be more of a normal person?haha....stop being so weird...do also keep in mind that the world doesn't revolve around you...it doesn't have time for you to make delayed decisions...you can't be wildful anymore..#talking to myself# LOL~

请原谅我　原谅我不成熟


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