a man who can change my life?

where do i foresee myself in 5 years time?

what kind of person will i be?

am i really capable of doing that?

should i go forward? out of my comfort zone?

i really wonder.

Peter Chan. you are a great someone.

can i manage the stress?

life.careeer.family?

which is my priority?

dare to dream.dare to try.

hardwork is needed. forgo my leisure time.

goodbye msn?

that's so funny.haha.

tomorrow is the choice.

be decisive.

damn it. can someone jus free me from financial worries?

DAMN IT MAN. THE RESULT IS ALWAYS QUARREL.

who will understand my stand?

why i always don't understand?

Peter Chan, will you believe in the wrong person?

when when when when when when????

i will be smiling always.

always making the wrong decision?

i think i can go bang against the wall.

useless me.

there's no such thing as independent?there's only inter-dependent?

i think everything is my problem?

maybe it's just me. i should just disappear into the thin air.

i'm really sorry for being so emo.

i just hate myself for everything i do.

don't ask me anything regarding this.



it's always so easy for someone to tell me, you can always earn back. you can always earn back. u can always earn back. it's just so easily said than done. i'm just not capable of doing that. i'm just stupid.dumb.brain cells getting lesser and lesser. i don't want to talk to anyone. anyone please don't talk to me. can anyone tell me who don't want to travel? or is it that i'm just too insensible?i think i am insensible.very insensible.i'm very sorry. narrow minded. i'm thinking too much. or am i not far sighted enough? damn me damn me damn me damn me. please kill me. please kill me. i'm just forgetful. blur. and what else. why the hell i am living on this earth. it had never belongs to me at all. i always want to be happy. i really want. i really can't help but be deep in thoughts. i am so immature. i want to sleep. i want to sleep. i want to sleep. they never been able to enjoy as well. why is it that they are able to do it but i can't? i may never be able to understand the love given by them. even small things i can't handle. never learn from mistakes. worst forever. i really hate you to the core. i am really very uncertain of my future. why am i talking to dad in that manner? i am such an unfilial child. someone please kill me. i have got no more motivation to live life to my fullest. why are we putting stress on dad? 穷人家就没有权利吗？kill me kill me kill me please. please. please. please. what do i want? the rich will never understand the poor.

the secrets.





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i will survive

i'm the survivor the the game on immunity challenge (=

expectation = disappointment (=

welcome to my social life~

welcome to my world~

it's just getting everything linked~

i know a bunch of damn sociable freaks..LOL..just one time..and it means ok the next time..

work and travel USA~!!!!!!

are you game on?



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consciously don't know

i know i know i know i know i don't know?????

forgotten what i want to write...LOL~~!!!

kickboxing~!!!

FINAL DESTINATION 3D!!! =D

woohoo~~

Sunday 4:30pm~~~~~~~~~ (=



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test test

testing my immune system (=



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should i laugh or should i frown. LOL.

omg..i am dead.so dead.so real.so true.but it's not going to last till then.

一笑而过

i've got a damn funny laboratory neighbour.LOL.

为你写诗.LOL.that's funny.

for everything that was done, there's always a reason/excuse (if you chose it this way).



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stories of a crab

story #1
你愿意把快乐双手奉献给他吗？我想这是我应该做的是。(= 因为。。最简单的快乐就是。。。让别人快乐。。何乐不为？
this isn't real. you will know. (=

story #2
如果不是你我不会相信朋友比情人还死心塌地。。


story #3
这将会永远随着我。。伴着我。。

story #4
简简单单。



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no title

when a problem can be solved...why worry? (=



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sleep

sleep sleep sleep (=




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oRphaN

orphan.....a movie which i thought would be like uninvited....a damn disappointment movie...but it turns out to be a thumbs up movie.......! (= a movie which makes me speechless for words....how long can a little deaf and mute girl keep the tramatising secrets?what's the feeling of having to know the secrets and not able to say it out?what's your feeling when you want to save your family but your partner simply refuses to believe in you?Max...I salute her! (=she's just so damn cute...hahahh...(= alrights...finally...at the last part of the movie i can't stand the mixed feeling.....plus the '9' year old Ester is just tooo........unpredictable....haha......as for the police....they can sleep at home..LOL!

laughing all the way while walking to the MRT station...hahahhahaha............

他要的是陪伴。。而不是六百块。。比你给的还简单。。

你害怕结局所以拼命伤害。。说是我挡住你的美好未来。。




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(=

hey ger~ i really see the change in you now (= keep it up!haha.... (=

shan's guest book is just so beautifully done up (= and guess what??i bumped into a person whom i approached at canteen B (interest of RSPVH booth) at shan's birthday today!omg....how small can a world be?LOL!!! just within......7 hours......strangers on street.....so far yet so near (=

siew lian is also a changed person right now (=

lim ze yi still no change! (=

it has become a meaningless thing to do...



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ranDom

sometimes i wonder how a no sounds like~haha~

how can a man be a gentlemen with sincerity?haha~ (=

no wrong idea~~ (=

different games played!




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1st wonderful day

first day of school~how was it?　(=

there's nothing special..insomnia before schol starts..cannot wake up the very first morning..ganna scolded by sis again~and there i go....school~~~here i come!!! (=

electives...electives....haha...it's just so irritatin..LOL!

went to guitar audition today...LOL!!! hmm....yupps.....you read correctly....it's audition~hmmm......and we waited for the teacher in charge from 230pm - 420pm........due to communication break down....in the end~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~audition=writing down your names...LOL!!!

my vegetarian fishballs!!!! (=

tml mind's cafe??????




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1:50am

~i will survive~

doing what was said is difficult....for you have to understand something~ change is the only constant (=


stopping activities is hard....first week of school goes like this....it can't be a cycle forever...for i'll definitely be dead~




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pointlessly walking (=

have you ever spent a day in orchard and not knowing what to do just because shopping isn't your cup of tea at that point of time?LOL!!!!

omg....one whole day at orchard walking up and down aimlessly with my sis...rested at orchard central's sofa....and fell asleep!LOL!!went to PS thinking that we want to watch movie...in the end it does not matches our timing and we walked back to orchard...haha....

it's such a lame day..LOL!!! (=

anyway~GI JOE is nice! (=




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DeN

haha~~ everytime go to ama's house to visit her in the end like visiting Jayden instead?LOL!!!

brought Den out to play at the play ground yesterday~he's just so energetic when i don't show him the energy i should!LOL!!kids are really kids..haha...seeing him shouting for his friends to come down.....running around without worries...haha....it simply make me smile..haha...

refusing to go back....crying on his way back...yet i simply don't care about him for if i do....he won't go back！哈哈！！hiding myself not letting him see me....that makes him cry again...shouting my name out loud.....and omg...that makes me feel like sayanging him more...haha...i'm just damn bad at that point of time..LOL!!scaring kids?haha.....

well~kids are just so realistic.....when they need you...they will come to you..LOL!!!


today brought my little darling boy out again.....this time to an air conditional place
haha....went to watch UP!! it's just so damn worth it and nice!haha.....funny...touching....with story line! (= and i realise something...i used to fall asleep in movie theatre is cos i'm working last time..LOL!!!today i'm enjoying throughout......opening my eyes wide....and......................laughing my way through! (= hahaha......funny funny fun fun!(=

school's starting next tuesday... =(


i'm wondering...why does everyone only have 24 hours a day??haha....that leads me to a thought...when a fact is a fact...y bother to ask y is this fact a fact when u can't change a fact....it's an absolute fact which i can't change....so...in order to make me feel better.....is try to get as much things done as possible!if work can be completed....then there's no point working..haha!! (=


i'm loving it! (=



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barrage (=

finally~~met up with ntu friends~haha...hmm~so who are present?let me see...hmmm~~they are: xiao hui, pearlyn, valerie, nate, calvin, zhen hui, yuan xiong and me!haha....the rest not free to come =(

went to marina barrage to fly kite and play frisbee!haha.....i successfully flew e kite up! (= with the help of valerie...aaahaha....high high into the sky~~~ ^_^ frisbee was fun too!but........it flew into the sea!!!a kite did that too~!!!haha! the deep blue sea is kind of seducing?lol........perhaps it's just too lonely....alrights~ it just need some company...haha....and one more thing is.............why is there so much food left?!!omg...the guys are just small eater la har?haha........anyway...the food made by YX and Valerie was really nice (=

dinner at creation after that...somewhere at bugis..LOL... (=

~finally..i went to marina barrage~


sometimes...i'm really wondering......is it really worth it?



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there's no one in this world is to be trusted..

i will be independent..

谢谢你的关照。。我一切都好。。



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never speak when you are on fire

never speak when you are on fire

^_^



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4.50am - insomnia

recollection

31st Jul, Fri

this is the day when i spend the longest day with nhg friends....

worked OT this day to do some archiving....while doing it....i'm wondering....what makes me willing to do such a boring job....when i'm only looking through case sheets......archiving away those with visits in the year 2006 and below......and there's really damn lots to do man....zzz...after thinking through.....i find that it's cos of a goal hich i set for myself.....*self achievement* is important (=

after OT...me, Randy and Feng 大哥 went to causeway to have our dinner......initially i suggest to play a game of daytona only after dinner.....and all thanks to an offer.....saying......'pay $20 for $20 more'....and there goes our self control......we accepted the 'great' offer...and spent almost 2 hours in there doing stupid things...LOL!well...having said that......it has really been long when i start playing in arcade with total engrossment....it's just fun doing some stupid things at times.....though i might have been doing it quite often in my normal life..LOL! *ops*

one important thing to mention is....my lunch partner Patrick came in the afternoon!(= us, the pioneer batch went for lunch together (=

a great day i would miss.. (=


1st Aug, Sat

it was another normal day~ work in the morning...CCA in the afternoon...but this day was just a bit different...cos this is my last day in nhg polyclinic.....chocolates...prunes...and a fishball...lol....doesn't it sounds funny?a fishball...yes...it really doesn't matter what i received....it's the sincererity which i felt that makes me happy....really happy....this day is also referred to as the nurses day.....and yet i missed a great buffet just because i need to leave in a hurry!!LOL........but it's alright......i'm not a nurse afterall...LOL! *consoling myself??* haha!

~sometimes i'm really wondering...how much food can a stomach store~
there are simply too much good food........around......

met my secondary school friends for dinner.....initially there should be aound 7 meeting....in the end becomes 3..LOL!but it's alright.......we met someone whom we never catch up with her for years!*drums roll*............and it's non other than WANG CAIYU! (= she still keeps her very original character...haha.....and what she remembered is like.....what i'd forgotten!LOl!!zzzz.....i think i'm losing my memory slowly...!LOL!!....zzzzzzzzzzzzz........ i'm glad she came (=

home we went at 11 plus.. (=


2nd Aug, Sun

met Van and Fu gege after work.....haha......went to chinatown to eat 田鸡粥 (= it wans't as good as Geylang's one...but it still satisfy me and makes me happy (= we never really chatted much....but i simply enjoyed their company (=

then...we tried to look for mango pudding....but after a long walk...we found none.....then finally at 9 plus....we same to this shop...yes....this shop....a dessert shop which i had memory on..!this is the place where me, Ah Tai, Yap, Nate and Mike went..haha....


3rd Aug, Mon

i'm jobless. feels weird...for the whole week i'm not working...plus i'm not going for CCA cos i've got something on....whole week my own activity...a totally different week.....

badminton...meet up...ama house...sleep...study?LOL...that's hilarious...

watching a show now~ *loneliness will only be felt when?* - when all your family members left you...she says~ *我习惯了一个人。。但从没像现在那么孤独*


guess what?i'd used more around 40mins plus minus on this entry..LOL!




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