180~ arnd e world in 80 days? lol~ *no link* (=

that shall make my 180 post~

so long since i last talk to you.
hmmm~
i had seen friends who are so crazy over idol~
able to smile as long as their news is presented in front of them~
hmm~
is that hard?
i'd never tried that~
perhaps i experienced before~
you have to smile no matter what.

my friend is sick and she is feeling down~!
glad that she found a listening ear~

i don't know what i am doing~
i don't know what i'm thinking~
contradicting feeling inside me now~
losing the ability to express myself when i'm already not very good at it~
i wonder how to live till 100 years maximum?
i need a listening ear~
at the same time i don't need~
i only want to be all by myself~
and with the sad case
can more gingko nuts allow me to trace back my memories?

i'm thinking~
thinking~
and thinking~
it's always true~
time time time time time is the best poison~ best antidote~

the rat race~
it's true~
but what else can i do to not be involved in it?

well damn low self esteem is the cause~


what else more?

home sweet home (=
mr brain~ start playing~ hmmm~

DOES DRAWING HELPS?





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i seems to be trying to build up distance
alive